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1. |
Introduction
04:20
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Mmm Mmm Mmm
Ah Ah
We ey oh
The amniotic fluid is borderline
Is it time to push?
It hurts
I feel like pooping
Sing, don't scream
Your body will know
Did the water break?
What is going on?
Hold my hand
Pray
In distress! In Distress!
Emergency cesarean
We can't stand our ground
Blood pressure
Loss of blood
Hemorrhage
Heart beat
Low cry, sing
Sh!
Pray
The induction is not working, balloon
Risk of complications, mucus, the blood, how much?
Here she is, almost there, I can see the head, push
Where is my guide?
Preeclampsia?
What is going on?
I don't know how to do this
Tear, tear where?
Cardiomyopathy, stitches, the placenta looks good,
Stitches, bleeding after
Pain, don't do too much
The blood will show when you are doing too much
Go, go, stop, stop, work out
Oh sleep, sleep, nurse, breastfeeding
Just, argh ooo, she is here, please cry, thank God
The blood will show
Heel prick, love, so tired, love, my blood, my heart
Love hear me, can anyone hear me?
Who is this, who am I? I am everything
What is this? I did it, we did it, I didn't know how to do it
Oh what have I done, who am I?
Wow, elation, euphoria, please be okay
The cord is cut
Two to three times, three to four times
I survived
I am here, I am here
She is here
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2. |
Afire
04:26
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Afire afire afiyi
Afire afire fire
Afire afire afiyi
Afire afire fire
Rock a bye baby on the treetop
When the wind blows, the cradle will rock
When the bough breaks, the cradle will fall
And down will come baby, cradle and all
One thing I wasn't prepared for was the fierce love
That would come with becoming a mother
So strong and all consuming
Love set me afire but I was fireproof
Afire afire afiyi
Afire afire fire
A flame bursts into existence
Carrying your name across the universe
Brave souls calling in the distance
Who chose who? With all my fierceness I choose you
I am the cradle, the rock, the wind, and the tree
You can fall into me
Fall into me
I am the cradle, the rock, the wind, and the tree
You can fall into me
Fall into me
Fall into me
Fall into me my love
You will go through the ring of fire
And this love will ignite you
A face glowing in the darkness
Ferrying a likeness through the sonogram
A pace set by two hearts boundless
Who chose who? With all my fierceness I choose you
I am the cradle, the rock, the wind, and the tree
You can fall into me
Fall into me
I am the cradle, the rock, the wind, and the tree
You can fall into me
Fall into me
Fall into me
Fall into me my love
Fall into me
Fall into me my love
I am the cradle, the rock, the wind and the tree, you can fall into me, fall into me
I am the cradle, the rock, the wind and the tree, you can fall into me, fall into me
I will catch you, I'll protect you, I will nurture and adore you
I'll protect you, I will catch you, I will nurture and adore you
Afire afire afiyi
Afire afire
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3. |
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Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
I can feel the change
Change in my bones
I can see the glow
Luminescence
Too early to show
But somehow I know
Growing cell by cell
Into something else
Wow Am
Only Human
Only human
Only human
And I'm mother too now
Mother too now
Mother too now
Ah!
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
I can hear the swell
A new beat in my chest
I can taste the blood
Of life in my womb
Too early to say
Who's the potter or clay?
Euphoria
Is something else
Wow Am
Only Human
Only human
Only human
And I'm mother too now
Mother too now
Mother too now
Ah!
Ooo
This is the beginning
And I'm feeling like an alien
Rushing through all my emotions
So exciting terrifying
Will I make the right decision
What the hell is that I'm smelling?
My insides are twisting turning
With this life newly forming
See me laughing see me crying
See me out of space I'm spinning
Far from earth but slowly falling
Shh got real and now I'm dealing
With the fact, I'm all up in my feelings
And I'm so far, too far from perfect
But I'm
Only Human
Only human
Only human
And a mother too now
Mother too now
Mother too now
Ah!
And I'm Only Human
Only human
Only human
And I'm a mother too now
Mother too now
Mother too now
Ah!
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ah!
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4. |
The Letdown Getdown
06:20
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I imagined myself a sweetly flowing
Naturally giving
Highly uplifting
Superhero breastfeeding mama bear
But that was before my first cluster feeding,
Nipple bleeding, sleepy latching pseudo biting session
Damn this was going to be harder than I thought
And no one mentioned how literally draining it would be
Have you ever tried to fit
A large hard milk spraying breast
Into a teeny tiny mouth
Without suffocating them?
Well every mama that has tried before me deserves a medal
Bear in mind that all of this is happening with lack of sleep
Slowly healing of a third degree perineum tear
Ravenous hunger, lack of time keeping and the sheer shock of it all
Damn also no one reveals how painful an engorged breast or clogged duct will feel
It feels like someone punched you on the inside of your breast
Nursing was a letdown in so many ways
but you just have to get down because the benefits are amazing
You gotta let it flow
This is the letdown getdown
Let if flow
Liquid gold
Let it flow
Liquid gold
I got liquid gold
Coming out of cracked nipples
They said it’d be luxurious
That I wouldn’t feel no pain
Said it would be natural to nurse but
Felt like I was hit by a bus
Milk oh
Clogged oh
Where’s my supply?
It’s letdown getdown
So getdown let that milk down
Said getdown let that milk down
Let if flow
Liquid gold
Let it flow
Liquid gold
So getdown let that milk down
Said getdown let that milk down
Netflix and milk this
Clogged ducts and mastitis
Latching needs a specialist
What you know about Raynaud’s syndrome
That's when the blood doesn’t flow
To a spot in a your nipple oh
Damn it hurts
Fear the thrush
Feel the rush
It’s letdown getdown
So getdown let that milk down
Said getdown let that milk down
Let if flow
Liquid gold
Let it flow
Liquid gold
On a lighter note I can’t count the amount of times
I looked at my husband and his useless nipples
With an anger that was swift and righteous
How dare those nipples not work
Speaking of work so you go back to work
Find time to pump hoping that you will have a letdown when you need to
And not while you’re giving a presentation or on stage
Also hoping your work will respect your pumping time and area
You know what song lyric I now hate?
Strong enough to bear the children then get back to business
I love Beyonce but **** Beyonce
Nah Just playing but those lyrics hurt though
It is not ok that a majority of women have to go back to work
Because we do not have Paid Maternity Leave
And if we have any, it is not enough and is not a leave
Paid Maternity leave should be a right
So mothers can heal, bond, grow, mature
Have job security and go through whatever healing we have to go through
Like postpartum depression
medical complications and time to just breathe
But no breastfeeding shaming allowed here, so let that guilting go
There is a lot of misinformation out there and supply is tricky
So whether milk comes from a breast or a bottle
The love and nurture a mama gives to her little one is the real liquid gold
Check in on your new mamas
Send them encouraging messages and love
Be gentle with yourself mamas
And let the liquid gold of love flow to yourself as well
So getdown let that love down
Said getdown let that love down
Let if flow (so getdown let that love down)
Liquid gold (said getdown let that love down)
Let if flow (so getdown let that love down)
Liquid gold (said getdown let that love down)
That’s right you got this
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5. |
Hunny Bunny
03:54
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Go to Sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to Sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep
Oh hunny bunny you’re my cutie pie
Oh hunny bunny I hate when you cry
Oh hunny bunny won’t you close your eyes
Oh hunny bunny how you sweetly sigh
But go to sleep sleep sleep
Close your eyes my love
And go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep
Oh hunny bunny I love when you smile
But oh hunny bunny won’t you rest a while
Oh hunny bunny for the love of silence
Oh hunny bunny hear this lullaby
But go to sleep sleep sleep
Close your eyes my love
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep
Oh hunny bunny you’re my little one
Oh hunny bunny there’s another yawn
Oh hunny bunny you look so far gone
Oh hunny bunny I am just so done
Please let me sleep sleep sleep
Close your eyes my love
And go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep
Oh hunny bunny will I get this right?
Oh hunny bunny I’m so sleep deprived
Oh hunny bunny I have cried and cried
Oh hunny bunny how will I survive
With no sleep sleep sleep
Close your eyes my love
And go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep
Oh hunny bunny it’s another day
Oh hunny bunny how you finally lay
Oh hunny I hope sleep has come to stay
But oh hunny eight minutes is not okay
We will sleep sleep sleep
Sometime soon I hope
We will sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep sleep sleep
Go to sleep
Oh hunny bunny you’re my cutie pie
Oh hunny bunny you’re my cutie pie
Oh hunny bunny you’re my cutie pie
Oh hunny bunny you’re my cutie pie
Got to sleep
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6. |
Phantom Cries Prelude
01:58
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According to the CDC,
Out of 4 million women who give birth in the US annually
Over 50,000 a year, experience dangerous and even life-threatening complications
12.4 deaths per 100,000 live births for white women
17.8 deaths per 100,000 live births for women of other races
40.0 deaths per 100,000 live births for Black women
The ratio of complications across races is negligible
But the fatalities are not
2 to 3 times more maternal death occurs for Black women
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7. |
Phantom Cries
03:15
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One Last
One Last
One Last touch
One last gaze
One last breath
Haunting her days
She hears another cry, in the space where her heart keeps on beating
She still carries his voice, in her DNA where he keeps on living
She has a perfect picture of his eyes before he went away, he’s gone
And the silver sun that pierced the clouds have turned to gray, he’s gone
10 months of dreaming, ten months of gleaming
Who will stop the cries?
Phantom!
Ta mm ta mm ta mm ta ta mm ta ta da
Ta mm ta mm ta mm ta ta mm ta ta da da da
One Last touch
One last gaze
One last breath
Haunting her days
She sees another life, in the space where her brain keeps remembering
She still reaches for his hand, so small and too fragile yet tightly holding on
She has a perfect picture of the footprints he’ll never make, He’s gone
Next to the perfect picture of steps that he’ll never take, He’s gone
Ten months of dreaming, life cut short
Ten months of gleaming, life cut short
Who will stop the cries, phantom!
Ta mm ta mm ta mm ta ta mm ta ta da
Ta mm ta mm ta mm ta ta mm ta ta da da da
One Last touch
One last gaze
One last breath
Haunting her days
One Last touch (take me instead)
One last gaze (what do I do now)
One last breath (oh the grief)
Haunting her days (oh the grief)
Ta mm ta mm ta mm ta ta mm ta ta da
Ta mm ta mm ta mm ta ta mm ta ta da da da
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8. |
The Blood Will Show
03:30
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I have kingdoms to take over
I can win it all, yes I can
I prepared for all of my labor
I can work it out, yes I can
The pressure keeps rising
My heart keeps racing
The world keeps judging
If you can’t do it all
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
I have a queendom to reign over
I can do it all, yes I can
I am more than my skin color
But in this system I’ve already lost
Do I have to keep fighting?
To find health that is caring?
If you don’t hear my voice
Whose fault is it?
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
Still working hard, I don’t know when to stop
And you know I can’t cause I’m no man
I’m a champion in my field of work
But in your hospital I’m over run
Maternity is not a leaving
These wounds aren’t healing
If the world keeps judging
You can’t do it all
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
I’ve been running around breaking my neck
Running around breaking my back
Running around losing my voice
Running around losing my body
Running around breaking my neck
Running around breaking my back
Running around losing my voice
Running around losing my body
It’s a bloody show
It’s a bloody show
It’s a bloody show
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show
The blood will show you
The blood will show
Yababa budaba budaba bababa budah
Yababa budaba budaba bababa budah
Yababa budaba budaba bababa budah
Yababa budaba budaba
The blood will show you
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9. |
Strong Black Mother
05:08
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I’m trying to be a superwoman
I’m trying to rise up every time
And keep forging on till I’ve done all I can to be a
I’m a Strong Black Mother
Strong Black mother
I feel like I’m losing my mind
I feel like I’m stuck on rewind
But I will survive if I stay on that grind
Cause I’m a Strong Black Mother
Strong Black Mother
Maybe I’m breaking on the inside
Maybe I’m shaking under my pride
But I’m tired of trying to hide all that I am
To be a Strong Black Mother
Strong Black mother
Who, Who, Who’s coming through
To water this community
See for the future
I am so full with the falling star
Pack up these groceries,
Walk us to our car
I am as strong as I look
I am a Strong, Strong Black Mother
Strong Black Mother
I, You know I’m a mother
But there are times I can’t do it all
But when I need help, I need help, I need help
You can’t do it all by yourself
But I’m a Strong Black Mother
I carried life
Created a man
They cut me apart
Where I couldn’t stand
Now I am raising him to love another Strong Black Mother
Strong Black Mother
So I’m celebrating being just me
I’m celebrating my fragility
I can be tough when it’s healthy to be
I’m a Strong Black Mother
Strong Black Mother
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10. |
Bigger Than My Body
03:33
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Ah Yi Yi Yi
Ah Yi Yi Yi
Ah Yi Yi Yi
Ah Yi Yi Yi
Aaah Ah Uh
Aaah Ah Uh
Aaah Ah Uh
Aaah Ah Uh
Who am I? Woman, mother, black, skin and bones
Who are you? Naive, Focused, Torn, scared, unemployed
What do we do? Be silent, nurse, cry, explain, laugh and sh
Who questions why? you, me, they, them, us, what the ****?
I'm stronger than the old me
But more fragile than the old me
I'm gentler than old me
I expect more from the old me
More exhausted than the old me
There's more beyond the old me
Will I ever feel like the old me
I feel bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Who goes there? Mother, doctor, nurse, doula, husband, wife
Who will lie? Strangers, blood, tubes, stress, a number on the chart
Who will survive? Mother, child, cord, mind, placenta, numb
Are you prepared? Prenatal, postpartum, love, time will heal the pain
I'm stronger than the old me
but more fragile than the old me
I'm stronger than the old me
But more fragile than the old me
I'm gentler than old me
I expect more from the old me
More exhausted than the old me
There's more beyond the old me
Will I ever feel like the old me
I feel bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Bigger than my body (Bigger than my body)
Bigger than my body (Bigger than my body)
Bigger than my body (Bigger than my body)
Bigger than my body (Bigger than my body)
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11. |
Thank You
01:04
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Thank you to the Black Women's Health Imperative, SisterSong Reproductive Justice and Black Mamas Matter Alliance, and the many organizations working hard to decrease black maternal and infant mortality rates.
Thank you to the doulas, midwives, and professionals expanding the care in health care. Gratitude to the mamas; past, present and future; may your labor be supported, and it's never too late to advocate for yourself.
Thank you to my family and friends for the love and support. I love and appreciate you.
Peace, Love, Abundance, and Joy.
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12. |
Mama (Long Version)
09:22
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Mmmm mmm mmm mmm
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama (hah hah hah)
Mama (Ooo oo oo)
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Mama
Ahh ahh aah
He calls out
I can’t breathe
I can’t breathe
Crown upon his head
wings upon his back
He was a father, a brother, a son
How could you not see it?
When you had your knee on his neck
George Floyd, Say his name
George Floyd
Justice Now
Something’s gotta change
Gotta stop killing our brothers and sisters
What are you gonna do now that you hear the call? oh
What are you gonna do now that you’ve heard his voice? What are you gonna do?
Mama mama oooo
That I can’t breathe
I’m a link (live)
What are you gonna do when you hear the call? (Hear the call)
Mama Yeah Hear the call
I hear you
Oh oh we all hear you
Now we gonna change the world (Change the world)
Now we gotta change the world (Change the world)
Right now, Do it now, Do the work now!
It’s a marathon
Not a sprint now (Yes)
Oh oh oh oh
Ooo ooo ooo
Mama Oh Oh Oh
For my brothers and my sisters (For my brothers and my sisters)
For the one that go before us (For the one that go before us)
For the ancestors and the future ancestors
That now depends on us (that now depends on us)
The time is now
Right here, right now (Right here, right now, the time is now)
Mama
Now you hear the call
Heart of my heart
Heart of my heart
Mama
Mmm mmm mmm
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13. |
Oh Yes Flow
03:20
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All I know is that it
Seems so different today
Feels like
The way to go is to find a flow
All
All I ask for you is flow
Flow
So I’m
Jumping in jumping out
Making the waves go around
Jumping in jumping out
It’s time to find a flow babe
Oh Yes
Oh Yes
Oh Yes
I know this moment is so
So beautiful it’s critical
I know this moment is so
So beautiful it’s critical
Ooo ooo ooo
All I see is things can be
So small next to the world
Finding the calm within
The chaos is gold
So I’m jumping in jumping out
Making the waves go around
Jumping in jumping out
It’s time to find a flow babe
Oh Yes
Oh Yes
Oh Yes
I know this moment is so
So beautiful it’s critical
I know this moment is so
So beautiful it’s critical
Oh Yes
Oh Yes
Oh Yes
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Kashimana Saint Paul, Minnesota
Kashimana is a multi-talented artist who wears many hats mother, musician, composer, producer, and teaching artist. Their music evokes profound emotions with its beautiful blend of soulful vocals, acoustic R&B, folk, and Afro-funk. Kashimana's performances are a raw and authentic expression of vulnerability, infused with joy and pain seeking to heal, comfort, inspire and ignite life and love. ... more
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